She is confused on camera to Hate n' cry or, Like n' smile

GETTING TIRED OF LOVING SOMEONE

MY HEAD GONNA BE BLAST NOW,I CANT THINK ANYTHING,CANT DO ANYTHING,NO IMAGINATION OR ANYTHING ELSE.

I WAS CONFUSED OF UR SO MUCH LOVE FROM FEW DAYS.WAS NOT BELIEVING HOW ITS POSIBLE TO GET CHANGE ON A PERSON THIS MUCH.MY DOUBT WAS TRUE THAT U WERE NOT CHANGED FOR.AGAIN THE SAME TO DISSAPOINT ME,

M SO SAD NOW ,ALL MY HOPES AND EXCITEMENT YOU THROW THEM TO DUST BIN.M EMPTY ONCE AGAIN.AND HURTED OF MY OWN THINKING THAT I CUD MAKE EVERYTHING POSIBLE FOR THIS RELATION.

u CANT SHARE ANYTHING TO ME,IF YOU DON’T SHARE U CANT HELP ME FOR PLAN I WANT CREATE,IF I  DON’T HAVE UR HELP N SUPPORT I CANT DO ANYTHING.if I cant do anything why u r talking this way about love?? then this relation going for nothing,we are not lover but just frend.and from a friendship I sud not expect too much.but I did and that ws my mistake.thr is lotz I have to ask you,but u made me disspoint from 1^st question I ask with u,and u block all rest questions too.

I told you many times don’t push me in darkness.but u alwiz the same.you alwiz wants me to throw a stone to dark and to put it on the pot,how I can do that ,?? I don’t even have imagination for it.all I need is my manu and the plan for future.for this I have paid lots pain in past and until now from you too.dont know how much more to pay in future also,but why ??

Why u alwiz keeping me in this destination less journey ,don’t even know wer n how to go .

If nothing can be happen there is no reason to hold on,better we break this relation coz u cant even help me.u said na u have lots guys thr ? so choose 1of them so it will be easy for you to make all,thats really better for you,and about me? Don’t care of it,

But plz stop punishing me .i dnt want more pain from doing somthing good.

Or

If u cant answer me and cant help me,but u want keep relation??? ,give me plan,make it by urslef,and let me follow that,I will follow whatever u ask me to …do it !!

If u cant do both just plz block me from ur list,and be happy coz I wont bother you again n again.feel free to do all,I will really not blame you for anything,its like a chance to you.

I will live as I can ,with whtever I will have ,,empty ,loveless lone ,or anything,im ready to face.coz its too much trials I have given to life,I cant do more na,really tired with my life.why this much of pain for just to have my manu.too much na,I cant afford more,so better close her account also and forget everything about Manu.i don’t need anything,let me be alone ,,for rest of life I will live as my destiny wants,I wanted to change everything but so few achievements with me,mostly r not as what I wanted.same in this relation also.whatever I want I cant do.even thr is no selfish desire,

If nothing happen ,I am extermly sorry for you to disturb you r time u passed with me,

I am sooryy and please be kind to forgive me for everything I have done and desire with you/

You can choose option here.

1)      Answer me all I ask to you for the plan I want make for this relation,

2)      Or give me a plan with destination so I will follow whatever you ask me to do.

If you cant do both of them to give me smile, do something to make me happy…….

3)      Block me from your list and get a life and be happy for all u wanted and what u got.

You have options to choose!

Godbless you alwiz…

This is how i was wrong !

Loving you was now my past already, loved you was my craziness, plan for you was my stupidity, trying to give happiness was my poor desire, to give you smile on your lips was my fantasy, coz I was wrong .just to try to do all as reality for any person,, coz you were not looking for that but something else I can’t mention here,just because it’s a place where I can keep my MANJARI .

As you said thinking about my future is real, I can find my better life w o you is my future, and it’s so good, I can show my attention to other all if I don’t have you is also truth. You wanted to save my life was good path.  got lots of hurt and pain while having you was your intension to let me feel I have other life also, your thinking not to let me die for you was a nice thought in your mind saying to me that love is not life it’s just part of it, everything I wanted to do for you and your ignorance for that also a very kind you have done, that letting me know only 1 person can’t be everything for any1…you broke me, destroyed me, tried to killed me also was your intension to give new life to me. all I am thinking about you now is good, even in words you’re so good to seeing to other, so how you were best while you were in reality, all you did for me is so good to feel…

Thanking you to doing all for my life, for my living, for my future, for my better smile,

You were really good and true and me!! …………………………………………..was wrong at all,,,

New Dream about Manu'

MANU’

I dreamed about you today, with me in my hug, joking with me by being beside of me, and I hope and pray for now for that real act you do with me, imagination of me will come true that way was in my dream, loving you is really crazy thinking, coz no1 has imagination as I do for you, means I haven’t found any1 keeping same imagination for long as symbol of my love, with change of every time people changes their thinking so imagination also goes change, but me stupid or good, don’t really know having same imagination for long, so I cud be more sure than them that I will find you just as I want you to be ,for friend of my craziness, hope of my dream, support of my plan, and love of my life, I will have you then I can show how I will make u cry and comfort you with my love, tears ,sadness, sorrow of you will be my pleasure, coz only that time I cud show you my love care and comfort you by that way, easy for me to make you happy and cry, haha,, sorry, but I want it to happen in real, lots love desire to make you happy, and thinking to give you pleasure from my love with full of dedication and care ,,faith on you and relation we will have.

           Manjul and Manjari is my imagination so it will be hard for you to understand all, but I’m sure as I make you and me for love just that way I will make u understand on that. You are being a part of me soon and so soon as I plan for you and me and for us and our love,

Loving you is forever…..as my last hope and living desire.Happy now, it’s me your

                                                                                                                               Man Manjul 

Aama huna gaaro chha rey--नेपथ्य